Psalm 10:11 He says in his heart, "God has forgotten, he has hidden his face, heThe Message version of this verse says it this way: "He thinks God has dumped him, he's sure that God is indifferent to his plight."
will never see it."
Wonder if I could get any of you to raise your hands and admit you've felt that way before? It's not exactly the most Christiany way to feel and yet... there are those dark days, those hopeless moments where doubt and fear creep in.
Surely God doesn't see that my family is on the verge of financial collapse or He would move.
Surely He would've healed my marriage but we're further apart than ever.
Surely He doesn't hear me beg for help with losing this weight, with tackling this addiction, with facing this health issue.
Surely He would grab hold of my wayward child and bring him back.
Surely He would give me the child my heart longs for.
The list goes on and on. Have you ever felt dumped by God? I think there is no worse way to feel in the world. I am convinced that much of the misery we see in the world is because people go along through life convinced God has dumped them. They give up on Him because He doesn't move within their timetable; He doesn't answer their requests the way they wanted; He doesn't seem to be listening. So they shrug, announce that He just doesn't care and go off to live life apart from Him.
I am reminded of Jesus on the cross when God turned His back on Him as He bore all of our ugly ugly sins. Jesus screamed "My God, My God why have You forsaken me?" Being separated from God made Him cry out in agony. And yet, many people choose to live life separated from Him, convinced He won't respond anyway... so what does it matter? Hell, it turns out, isn't about fire and demons as much as it's about never ever having the opportunity again to choose Him. Eternal separation from the One our souls long for.
God says, "Return to Me, and I will return to you." (Malachi 3:7) Not because He is standoffish and doesn't want to be the one to make the first move. Totally opposite. If He barged His way into our lives, it would go against the very thing He gave us from the beginning: free will. He gave us the choice to choose Him... or not.
The good news is, He is right there waiting when we do. His plans for us are still in effect whenever we choose to jump into the stream of His grace. And in all of that, our faith and trust grows as we learn to submit to His perfect plans-- even when He seems to have forgotten or seems silent or to have hidden His face from us. I have said before that the best prayer we can pray is "I trust You, I trust You, I trust You." It's not an easy prayer to pray. It's one of complete and total surrender. It's one that many of us fight against. Some of us will walk away. And some of us will press in. (Luke 8:45)
What will you do?